urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:to_x_die The Musings Of The Lonely The Darkness Is Within Us All to_x_die 2008-01-28T22:59:40Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:to_x_die:1259 Things that cling... 2008-01-28T22:59:40Z 2008-01-28T22:59:40Z Wings of a Butterfly- H.I.M <p>Leeches, Ticks, Mosquitos, wet seaweed...the shower curtain....my blood dripping down my arm onto my pale thigh criss crossed with razor blade scars...................................and katie.<br /><br />This girl...this....thing. She follows me so, rambling on and on about her life and anything else she can possibly think of..oh dark lord why have you punished me so? have I not been loyal? Day after day she rambles and rambles...<br /><br />I try...try to reach out to humanity and i get...this! this thing...this abomination...but i suppose being so mysterious comes with an unbearable price...oh why does fate torment me so?<br /><br /><img alt="" src="http://images.elfwood.com/art/l/a/laberg/goth0001copy.gif" /><br /><br />simply because i am as stunning and mysterious as her...does this mean i am to suffer?</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:to_x_die:830 Oh Woe 2008-01-27T15:09:54Z 2008-01-27T15:09:54Z Love Never Dies- Theatre Des Vampyres <p>Why are people such imbeciles? My first attempt at reaching a friend, a kindred soul, on this website, this swarm of life..failed...backfired...exploded.....<br /><br />No matter what i do...they just turn away from the cold wind of my soul like a child from the vacuum cleaner~some just can't take the dark...most just can't take the dark. I'm dripping, positively dripping with affection to give...love to give.....but alas no one wants it. Can't they look past the scars and see the beauty within? WHAT HAS DISNEY TAUGHT US?<br /><br />I wrote...a poem to commerate<br /><br /><strong>TO HUMANITY:</strong><br />the night falls in a heavy, suffocating cloak, entwined are we.<br />the salvation for which you pine<br />flares once, then dies,<br />smothered by a velvet ebon nothingness.<br />all hope must sicken and die.<br /><br />your passion throbs no more.<br />how could you cause such hurt?<br />lost souls surround us, crying,<br />we are fallen.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:to_x_die:737 First Entry 2008-01-26T20:07:30Z 2008-01-26T20:07:30Z Join Me In Death- H.I.M I am hoping to connect with other creatures of the night,such as myself....maybe i will look in the communities and see if i can find other like minded individuals...those who&nbsp;really see&nbsp;the hand that "god"&nbsp;has dealt us humans on our miserable planet.&nbsp;<br /><br />But I suppose I should tell a little about myself...should I not?<br /><br />I am nightraven and music is my life...my favorite bands include H.I.M, My Chemical Romance, Greenday (only the new stuff), Fallout Boy, AFI,Coheed and Cambria,Finch,Chevelle,Thursday,Marilyn Manson,New Found Glory, Pink Floyd, Simple Plan...among others.&nbsp;<br /><br />My favorite song being : How could this happen to me? by Simple Plan...this song just..speaks deeply to me, indeed how COULD this happen to me?<br /><br />I am always in deep contemplative thought about the state of our world today...how unfair it is....i just want god *ha* to strike me dead and be done with it, instead of subjecting me to this cruel torture called life....oh woe. But what do I expect from such a "god"? I enjoy a good conversation...but not a debate. (well...maybe).