Leeches, Ticks, Mosquitos, wet seaweed...the shower curtain....my blood dripping down my arm onto my pale thigh criss crossed with razor blade scars...................................and katie.

This girl...this....thing. She follows me so, rambling on and on about her life and anything else she can possibly think of..oh dark lord why have you punished me so? have I not been loyal? Day after day she rambles and rambles...

I try...try to reach out to humanity and i get...this! this thing...this abomination...but i suppose being so mysterious comes with an unbearable price...oh why does fate torment me so?



simply because i am as stunning and mysterious as her...does this mean i am to suffer?

mood: annoyed music: Wings of a Butterfly- H.I.M

Why are people such imbeciles? My first attempt at reaching a friend, a kindred soul, on this website, this swarm of life..failed...backfired...exploded.....

No matter what i do...they just turn away from the cold wind of my soul like a child from the vacuum cleaner~some just can't take the dark...most just can't take the dark. I'm dripping, positively dripping with affection to give...love to give.....but alas no one wants it. Can't they look past the scars and see the beauty within? WHAT HAS DISNEY TAUGHT US?

I wrote...a poem to commerate

TO HUMANITY:
the night falls in a heavy, suffocating cloak, entwined are we.
the salvation for which you pine
flares once, then dies,
smothered by a velvet ebon nothingness.
all hope must sicken and die.

your passion throbs no more.
how could you cause such hurt?
lost souls surround us, crying,
we are fallen.

mood: pessimistic music: Love Never Dies- Theatre Des Vampyres